2 months later

Here I am, 2 months later and I was going to start off with an apology for being gone for so long, but the truth is, I've started a few posts recently, but none of them felt sincere enough.  Most of them were about my journey on Ideal Protein, but the truth is,I've hated this process and it's been really hard.  I didn't want to write that, I wanted to write about recipes and my great weight loss, which it has been great, but I wasn't excited about it at all.  I know that comes through in my writing so I didn't want to subject you all to that.  The truth is that I've been somewhat depressed the last little while.  I was having a really hard time finding a job, but now it looks like I'm in the clear for that, we'll find out later this week.  I also really underestimated how different it would be moving to a small area.  I've felt very isolated recently, but I think a lot of that has to do with this diet also.  I mean, it's hard to want to hang out with people when you can't drink, can't eat the food everyone else is eating and are tired all the time.  I'm sorry that this is turning into a bit of a whiny post, but I've decided that instead of trying to have posts about a specific part of my life I'd rather have honest posts about what's going on and how I'm feeling about everything.

I'm down almost 40 lbs and 2 sizes and yet I don't feel much better about how I look or feel.  Usually at this point in my weight loss I have way more energy, I'm able to run faster, jump higher and all that, but on Ideal Protein I'm not.  If I do more than just a normal days worth of activity I'm beat for about 2 days.  I feel like I could sleep all the time and I'm super sick of it.  I'm done with this diet at the end of August so only 13 days to go, but man am I ready for it to be over!  This has been an incredibly long 3 months and I feel bad that we were on this diet for the entire time Chris was here, hopefully next summer we'll be more fun!  I think I'm going to sign off now, but I'm vowing to post more often, whatever it's about, and to post more pictures.